Hymn to Hekate

Hymn: to Hekate, Mistress of the Heavens, Earth and Sea.

Guardian of the crossroads,
Bearer of the light
Keeper of the thresholds
Maiden of the night

I dance my dance for thee
In heavens, earth and sea
By starlight and by moonlight
At first light and at twilight
I dance my dance for thee

Nocturnal roaming maid,
Friend of the bullwright,
Through forests, vale and glade
Guide with torches bright

I lift my cup to thee
In heavens, earth and sea
By starlight and by moonlight
At first light and at twilight
I lift my cup to thee

Beacon to the underworld
Luminescent queen
Protectress of the girl
Let our paths be seen!

I sing my song for thee
In heavens, earth and sea
By starlight and by moonlight
At first light and at twilight
I sing my song for thee.

Towards a House of Life

to Naomi

Happy New Year 2010! It’s been a year since I started this blog, and though there have been few posts, each have been deeply thought out.  Here are some thoughts on culture and knowledge, sacred and secular, that have been running through my mind recently,  as I’ve been reading about a fascinating but mysterious Egyptian institution called The House of Life.

In Ancient Egypt, throughout its long history, all fields of knowledge, science and arts were at one with the sacred. Heka, generally translated as “magic”, but meaning also “sacred wisdom”, and the different branches of  practical and theoretical knowledge were studied together in the Houses of Life, those great institutions attached to temples, which were charged with collecting, preserving, teaching and creating knowledge. Mysticism, esoteric knowledge, exploration of different states of consciousness, theurgy, magic were all studied and experienced in the Houses of Life. Curricula were practical, experiential, and theoretical. Houses of Life also produced books and explored new knowledge – esoteric, scientific, literary and artistic – and trained the nation’s priests, professionals and mystics. Their outlook and their entire vocation were both scientific and sacred – indeed, the very idea of separating the two would have made no sense to an Ancient Egyptian.

How have the idea and ideals of the House of Life survived the end of Ancient Egyptian civilisation?

No-one would deny the achievements that have arisen from religion; the Christian religion inspired the great works of engineering that are the Romanesque and Gothic Cathedrals of Europe, and the rock-hewn basilicas of Ethiopia, which demanded a thorough grounding in mathematics, engineering, astronomy and geology, as well as in Christian doctrine and esoteric Christian understanding. Islamic culture allowed for developments in mathematics, medicine, astronomy as well as some stunning architecture and feats of engineering. These were born out of societies where religion and science were not separated, but were considered part of a same sacred world-view. Yet it is undeniable that Christian and Muslim dogma at their most rigid have hampered scientific research and rejected the findings of science in several key areas, notably the origins of life and – in an earlier time – the cosmology of the universe, and the solar system in particular, where it contradicted religious dogma.

The response of science to such dogmatic strictures was – very reasonably – to sideline religion. Over the past three centuries in Europe and North America, this led to a divorce between sacred and secular science, a gradual erosion of spirituality from the centre of daily life and finally – a triumph of secular science to the point where the very word “science” has been monopolised by secular science, the notion of sacred sciences forgotten, and in the dominant Western and Westernised cultures, spirituality has overall been equated to superstition or woolly thinking. The few who ally both in their lives and work, like the biologist and Jesuit spiritual thinker Teilhard de Chardin, have had their legacy split between the scientists, who cordon off and praise the scientific thinking; and the spiritual followers, who embrace the spiritual message but divorce it from a cool scientific mind that makes them uncomfortable. Philosophers have attempted to keep the whole scientific-spiritual heritage of Teilhard de Chardin intact, but approaching it from a purely rational-intellectual perspective, they miss the very heart of it – its spiritual imagination.

Religious dogmas, far from disappearing in the face of triumphant secular science, have continued as the ideological and political battlegrounds they have been since the rise of the monotheisms in the centuries between the death of Christ and the triumph of the Muslim caliphate in the Middle East, North Africa and Southern Europe.

So what can Ancient Egypt teach us on how we acquire and pass on knowledge and wisdom? We know that Egyptian religion was pervasive and touched all areas of life, every bit as much as religion did in Mediaeval Europe. Does that mean that religious dogma prevented the free pursuit of knowledge in Egypt, in the same way it did in Europe?

The development of Egyptian cosmology over thousands of years, the varying myths that proliferated, apparently contradicting each other, the fluid nature of the Neteru (gods and goddesses), all suggest that the opposite might have been the case: instead of the various branches of knowledge, and science in particular, being hampered in their development by religious dogma, spiritual understanding evolved and developed as knowledge expanded. Sacred knowledge revealed in altered states of consciousness and practical or abstract knowledge gained through reasoning, observation and empirical evidence grew together.

For instance, the evolving myths of Osiris and Isis seem to have grown out of astronomical observations and a better understanding of stellar precession. The subtle understanding of Isis both as a bright and gentle mother, and Black Isis, an older, less visible but extremely powerful magical goddess, seems to be related to the astronomical knowledge of Sirius A (bright Sirius) and its binary partner Sirius B, a small but very dense and powerful white dwarf *. Astronomers observed and calculated these cosmic phenomena; mystics dreamt and explored in meditation their mythical counterparts and symbolic imagery. But unlike today, mystics and astronomers worked together and could be the same people. The physical and spiritual understanding of the cosmos were held as equally valid and interdependent: both demonstrated the greatness of Maat – cosmic balance.

It would have made no sense to an Egyptian priest-scholar to say: “we cannot change the written stories of the Neteru, they are factual and doctrinal – therefore science must bow down to these existing stories and demonstrate their literal truth.” Because myths were regarded as greater cosmological truths that affected both the macrocosm (the cosmos) and the microcosm (life on earth) – and not as historical and literal facts, the scribes of the Houses of Life considered it entirely natural that myths evolve. Different religious centres propagated different versions of the same myths and different myths that contradicted other myths. Myths were understood to explain the operations of the cosmos and the complexity of existence, and were probably the result of the explorations of priests (including the Pharaoh, as the representative of the Neteru on earth) while in what we would call today different states of consciousness – meditation, shamanic journey, astral projection and dreams.

Much as the ancient Rishis, the wise of India, had explored the fabric of the universe and of life in states of deep meditation, so did the religious initiates of Ancient Egypt. These journeys and moments of revelation during meditation complemented studies and reasoning made with the conscious intellect and gave to all branches of knowledge a spiritual underpinning. A physician would have looked at a disease from various angles, all of which amounted to a holistic approach: studied what his predecessors had written about a disease, made his own conscious observations of the physical and mental state of the patient, but also examined the dreams of his patient, relied on his intuitive sense and gone himself into a dream-state so as to understand the spirit of the disease. A disease was seen as a physical manifestation of a spiritual disorder (though not necessarily a punishment – rather it revealed a spiritual imbalance, which might or might not have been caused by an action committed by the patient). To restore order, that is, spiritual balance and physical health, both levels had to be diagnosed and treated together.

The funerary works that have come out of Ancient Egypt – either the Old Kingdom Pyramid Texts, or the New Kingdom Book of the Dead – suggest the intense shamanic work that some priestly initiates from the Houses of Life must have undertook in the Duat to return with such detailed imagery. This work would have stood as the most advanced level of initiation, but also allowed those priests to bring back the knowledge that would allow them write the appropriate spells, poems and incantations to guide and help the dead in their transformational travels through the Duat (the underworld), and share with with a select number among the living the secrets of the transformations undergone by the soul after death.

Where now do we find the successors of the Houses of Life?

The most obvious answer is: the universities. These are the repositories of knowledge, matrices of research and production of new knowledge, and centres of learning and training in both vocational fields like medicine or engineering, intellectual areas such as history or secular science such as physics or astronomy. Like the Egyptian Houses of Life, they have massive libraries and pride themselves both on their continuity and their innovation. But the separation between mind and soul, between secular and sacred knowledge that is the Western heritage is very obvious in universities – the knowledge that is studied, propagated and created in universities the world round is overwhelmingly secular, and there is no place for spiritual knowledge or the sacred sciences. Worse: the sacred has been depreciated in universities to the point that intense spiritual experiences can end up being pathologised in psychological studies.

Religious leaders – whose work is mainly outside of the university, but who have some links to universities – have taken one of several approaches: they are either aggressively anti-scientific and perpetuate the split in the other direction; they have disguised a literalist religious dogma with an approximation of secular science – but which “real” secular scientists discard on the whole as pseudo-science: this is the case of Creationism; or, in an attempt to woo the agnostic leaders of the dominant culture, they have distanced themselves from spiritual and mystical experiences, paying lip service to mysticism without encouraging it: in other words, they have secularised religion. There are some religious leaders who have embraced the need for spiritual imagination and mystical experience alongside study, piety and living a morally prescribed life, but these are few and it is rarely for their spiritual work that they are known and honoured**.

Well apart from the universities, smaller, far less prestigious – and for the most part marginalised by the secular centres of culture in Western or Westernised societies and by religious institutions – are the schools and centres that still teach, research, practice and create the sacred sciences. These tend to follow one philosophy or belief set, rather than teaching a range of sacred sciences: and so we have reiki schools, yoga schools, Chi Qong schools, shamanic practice schools, schools that teach Hawaiian healing techniques and others that teach crystal therapy or tarot. Some schools teach kabbalah, while other organisations look at the Western esoteric tradition (including the Hermetic Qabalah, an offshoot of Jewish Kabbalah), and ritual magic, a form of theurgy: their aim is to recreate in modern form the mystery schools of late antiquity. Increasingly, inspired by the still-living practices of many African cultures and Native Americans, there is an interest among all those who practice the sacred sciences, in ancestral practices, the honouring of ancestors, folk rituals as living spiritual practices and a non-physical exploration of the land and its spirits, which naturally leads to reverence and respect. A few of the mystery schools have taken up the challenge of studying the range of subtle energies of body and earth, native and hermetic traditions and several strands of occult knowledge, while openly encouraging intellectual study – at the risk of being called synchretic or overly eclectic by the others***.

In the West, and increasingly throughout the world, this disparate body of sacred science as a whole is called “New Age” and is not considered “knowledge” at all, far less science. Some of this criticism is fair, as there are New Age publications that present the results of spiritual imagination and revelation as historical or scientific fact (in the secular sense). Some New Age thinking and practices suffer from a notorious lack of intellectual soundness. Nevertherless, much of what is lumped under the label “New Age” has its roots or its inspiration long before our amnesiac era and many of its branches, such as Kabbalah or Yoga, have developed over time exceptional intellectual, physical and spiritual rigour, which serves as an example to the newer forms of spiritual expression, such as Reiki.****

There is no single institution in the world that replicates the full range of activities and above all, the holistic, unifying philosophy of the Ancient Egyptian Houses of Life. No place where a student can study both Western medicine and shamanic or subtle energy healing techniques, each understood thoroughly at their own level and given equal weight; no research centre where a microbiologist can conduct a double-blind experiment to study the physical conditions of cancerous cells, and also discover the spiritual condition of those same cancerous cells through lucid dreaming. Nowhere can a legal class consider the development of the law of Human Rights and contemplate the greater cosmological order at macrocosmic and microcosmic levels – what the Egyptians called the Ma’at – which underlies all rights and responsibilities. Nowhere can historians study and compare primary written sources and also enter imaginatively a period of history and its specific culture through oral traditions, storytelling and visualisation.

Indeed, the very idea makes scientists, lawyers and historians giggle (or lose their temper, depending on their mood); it also puts spiritual practitioners on edge, as many have reacted to being sneered by turning on secular, orthodox knowledge and rejecting even its effective results. Those scientists and intellectuals that have dared openly to breach the barrier between secular knowledge and sacred science in their work, especially their scientific work – Rupert Sheldrake, James Lovelock, Deepak Chopra, R.A. Schwaller de Lubicz, the scientists that ran the PEAR experiments in Princeton – have attracted attacks from the mainstream of secular science.

In the face of such attacks or distortions, it’s not surprising that few scientists or intellectuals – even those who are interested in the sacred sciences and do imagine the possibility of reconciliation between secular and sacred knowledge – dare to raise their heads above the parapet. In time, I think more will do so. As the excesses of the New Age revolution die down, as intellectuals and scientists learn they can meditate and dialogue with the invisible without becoming woolly-headed or loosing their capacity for sound judgement (quite the opposite!), the more thorough branches of sacred science will remain and develop more openly. Will they ever be fully admitted to university or in the mainstream of culture? A handful already are: healing practices that incorporate the knowledge of subtle energies, such as shiatsu or acupuncture, are taught in a few universities; yoga has come out of the closet not only as physical exercise, but as a sacred body of wisdom, one of India’s greatest exports as well as perennially popular at home. Training to become an acupuncturist or a yoga teacher takes years of hard work, made all the more difficult because the student must attain both intellectual and spiritual mastery.

Alongside these encouraging developments are some less encouraging signs. The Western esoteric tradition continues to be looked at with suspicion – and even outright hostility – by many who make mainstream culture in the universities or the media. Despite the fashion for “Kabbalah” launched by Madonna, Jewish mysticism and Hermetic Western occultism – by their association with oracular traditions, astrology and magical ritual – are regarded variously as forms of dark-age superstition, methods for hoodwinking the public, devil-worship or cults. Mention honouring your ancestors anywhere outside of Africa or the more traditional Asian families, and you are likely to receive a blank stare, a chuckle or a horrified look (and sometimes all three). Mention ancestral cellular memory and that reaction increases, despite the fact that those people who have most discussed and researched the phenomenon are medical doctors and biologists.

So what can a modern seeker do, who wishes to bridge the gap between secular and sacred knowledge? How can someone, today, become a yogi and a doctor and combine those two bodies of knowledge into an overarching healing practice, that seeks to heal the soul as well as the body? How can an architect learn to build according to the spiritual cosmic laws as well as applying sound engineering techniques, as his Egyptian predecessors did? How does a writer learn to ally literary skill and spiritual rigour?

The Egyptian House of Life grew out of a holistic but unified world-view and spiritual tradition, attached to temples that everyone in the land respected. In today’s mostly multicultural societies, where many world-views compete and complement each other, such an institution couldn’t exist in the same way. To find a comparable mix of cultures in the Ancient world, we have to look not to the world of Pharaonic Egypt, but to the brash, spiritually and intellectually exciting world of Alexandria, where much of the scientific and intellectual foundation of our present culture was concentrated and brought together from all areas of the (then) known world. The Alexandrian schools brought all this knowledge together and left a legacy of universalism and respect for mutliculturalism that is with us still; ideas, religions, sciences were syncretised. But the Alexandrian schools, for all their neoplatonic bias, lacked the spiritual foundation of the Houses of Life. Inquiring into their subjects purely with their reason, they lost the broader imaginative view of the meditator and dreamer.

In Western and Westernised societies over the past few hundred years (and indeed, for longer – starting with the Greeks), too much emphasis has been placed on the second quality at the expense of the first. There is an imbalance in our minds and world that the Egyptians would have recognised as an attack on Maat – cosmic balance. Too little – if any – emphasis is given to spiritual and imaginative development in education at any level; hardly any in the workplace or in social interaction. People who have integrated the spiritual imagination fully into their lives are often regarded as cranks (I know, I am one!). Yet we cannot do without it! Societies are sick, our planet is sick – because we have sacrificed this vital part of our human experience, and forgotten that spiritual imagination and secular reason are equal partners in our evolution.

For the most part, the House of Life has become, of necessity, an individual institution – a one-man band, where a single individual must look to teachers, mentors, colleagues and like-minded researchers in more than one place and seek to combine within himself secular and sacred knowledge. This demands rigour in many ways: practice of meditation and other states of consciousness alongside intellectual and secular scientific pursuits in one’s chosen field, to which must be added physical exercise practiced mindfully, for the benefit of body and soul; understanding of subtle energies as well as physical energy. Most importantly, a flexibility of mind, a freedom from dogma that allows both forms of knowledge to co-evolve and feed each other, without one compromising the other: and all that in the midst of a culture that pressures to keep them apart, piles ever more distractions, expenses and responsibilities on the shoulders of individuals and deems spiritual pursuits to be mere hobbies.

In my imagination, I see another kind of House of Life: institutions of research and learning that are as multicultural and open to a diversity of influences and traditions as the Alexandrian schools; but have the strong, heart-based spiritual foundation of the Egyptian Houses of Life; where, alongside a curriculum of secular science and humanities, we can practice the sacred sciences of contemplation, meditation, yoga, chi Qung, shamanic journeying, lucid dreaming and the understanding of dreams; where we can dance, make music and poetry; where we learn to be sensitive to and manipulate subtle energies; and these unifying practices would balance the separating activities of intellectual discrimination and secular scientific research. The researchers and teachers would be scientists, historians, mathematicians, poets, dancers, musicians, yogis, churchmen, imams, rabbis, lamas, saddhus, Sufi masters, reiki masters, kabbalists, hermeticists, shamans, diviners, doctors, lawyers, midwives, witches, singers, craftsmen and women, film-makers, human rights campaigners, novelists, martial arts practitioners, mask-makers, mediators. The young people schooled in such a way would be whole, no longer split between spiritual and secular, able to think clearly and feel deeply, to reason and to meditate, to trust their intellect and their intuition, feel at ease in their bodies, their minds and their souls. Just as we need both hemispheres of our brain to work in sync, so we need both the organising work of secular reason and the unifying work of spiritual imagination.

Notes

*We have only circumstantial evidence from myths that the Egyptians were aware of Sirius B. However the Dogon of West Africa have known of it for millenia and it is reasonable to conclude that its existence was deduced (if not observed) by other great African civilisations, including the Egyptian, as it affects Sirius A, a star which was closely observed by the Egyptians to the point that it guided much of their agricultural and architectural science. Sirius was the star of Isis as well as a goddess in her own right.

** As well as the Jesuit Teilhard de Chardin, mentioned above, another such exception is the late Michael Mayne, Dean of Westminster Abbey, who was able to ally the office of a high churchman in the Anglican communion and an open – and open-hearted – spiritual and imaginative life, which he wrote about in a number of books (This Sunrise of Wonder; Learning to Dance; The Enduring Melody). Archbishop Desmond Tutu has also written about the need for an integrated spirituality: indeed, he is clear that without such a strong spiritual underpinning, he would not have had the courage to campaign for human rights and take on the perpetrators of apartheid so courageously.

*** I have experienced and can recommend three such places of learning: Sentiers de Sagesse, the Way of Wisdom, ran by Marie-Noelle Anderson, an inspiring teacher, shaman and holistic healer, who works deeply with myth (available in English and French); Hallowquest – ran by John and Caitlin Mattews, who work at researching and educating on both native British and Irish traditions and the Western esoteric tradition; and The House of Life Mystery School, a modern mystery school ran by the wonderful Naomi Ozaniec, an Egyptian-inspired school which allies both a solid intellectual knowledge of several traditions, with a heart-based spiritual approach.

****The best known form of Reiki is the original Usui Reiki, first taught by Master Usui in Japan in the 1920s. Although the training in this form of subtle energy was always rigorous, prescribing many hours of meditation and practice, in the West it has suffered in three ways: slackness in practice (many teachers don’t consider it necessary to meditate or practice much, some teachers in fact don’t teach at all, but simply attune the students, even at a distance); factual inaccuracy about the origin Reiki (Master Usui was transformed from a former Buddhist monk into a Christian, in order to be more “acceptable” to Americans in the 1950s, when Reiki was first brought to the West); and some teachers have priced their teachings outrageously high. As a result, several self-governing bodies have grown around the world to try and bring consistency and quality among Reiki Masters and in the teaching of Reiki as a sacred science, and moderate any cult-like tendencies to rip people off. I was fortunate to be taught by a gifted and serious-minded teacher, Markus van der Westhuizen in Cape Town, South Africa. His thoughts on Reiki can be discovered on Reiki World, a website he runs and which does much to raise both the intellectual and spiritual standards of Reiki. The best books on Reiki make it clear that Reiki is a spiritual science that demands commitment and daily practice.

Copyright Sophie Nussle 2010

A non-Christian experience of Jesus

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A while ago, I had a discussion with a Pagan friend who was brought up as a Catholic. She said she had found her home in Paganism and didn’t miss Catholicism at all – but she did miss Jesus. This had me wondering. Why could she not take Jesus with her when she became a Pagan?

Yet that very idea is surprising to many, Christian and non-Christian.

Mention Jesus Christ anywhere and it is likely that he will be considered purely of concern to Christians; Christians “own” him, both in their own eyes and in the eyes of the world. Though Christian missionaries preach that Jesus loves the whole world, it is only within the confines of Christianity (whichever form the missionary in question belongs to) that such love is deemed to be expressed and that a relationship between an individual and Jesus Christ is encouraged to develop. The Theosophical Jesus is hardly mainstream and few people have ever heard of the view of Christ as one of the Ascended Masters.  The Qu’ran mentions Jesus and pays homage to him as a prophet, but given the strict monotheism of Islam, Jesus can have no place in its theology.  This is also the case in modern Judaism, where Jesus is an irrelevance – his message of love is adequately conveyed by other voices; and there is no doctrine of Fall and Salvation in Judaism – the Garden of Eden story is interpreted differently from Christian theology. Jews also reject the idea that Jesus was their long-awaited Messiah and consider that the title was wrongly appropriated by Christians.

Beyond monotheism, Jesus has no place in any religious pantheon. Yet pantheons were never meant to be static. In the Ancient world, deities did cross pantheons; the Romans adopted Epona and Mithra, Brigid had various forms and names across the British Isles, the Greeks syncretised Serapis from various deities and added him to an evolving Hellenistic Egyptian pantheon. In the past, Hinduism also had an evolving pantheon.

Nowadays, a mania for literalism has endangered that fluidity. Reconstructionist religions tend to be narrowly focussed on their search for exactitude – adopting deities from other pantheons or religions is a big no-no. Official Hinduism has stultified into a rigid (if vast) pantheon, and the vedas are interpreted as unchanging. The growing Yoruba group of religions have adopted the same stance – orishas are fixed, there is no place for anything “foreign”, apart from what was syncretised by the Santeros several centuries ago (and even those syncretisms of Santeria are rejected by many following Yoruba paths).

Flexible neo-pagans invoke various deities from a number of pantheons; for many neo-pagans, all gods are one god, all goddesses one goddess;  but there is rarely, if ever, a place for Jesus. Why is that? Why does a modern Pagan feel confortable invoking Ganesh one day, Athena the next, honouring the Ancestors and embracing a tree, yet discount Jesus as a focus for worship, invocation – or even simply as a presence to be received and acknowledged?

Amongst those who do not practice any religion but follow a free-form spiritual path, Jesus plays an ambiguous role. While some like to talk of “Christ Consciousness” (a concept derived from Theosophy), few choose Jesus as one of their guides, deities, teachers or spirits to be invoked.

When I talk about Jesus, I don’t mean the historical figure, of which we know so little (we cannot even be certain he existed and wasn’t an amalgam of various personalities); I am talking about the mythological Jesus Christ, as he appears both in the gospels admitted in the New Testament and those left out. I use “mythological” in its noblest sense, as conveyor of a mysterious deeper truth, non-literal but no less objective, real and meaningful than literal, factual truth (and sometimes, more so!)

The main elements in the mythology of Jesus all belong to the great myth patterns of the world: the prophecies and announcement of his arrival; the miraculous birth; the vision of a child of light; the man who is made into a god; the god  who has incarnated as a human for a purpose; the son of a divine father and mortal woman; the divine mission among men; the transfiguration; the sacrifice; death and resurrection; the 3 days spent in the underworld; the ascension. None of these are specific to Jesus and can be found in other world myths, though his story is remarkable in containing so many of the well-known myth patterns; and most especially so many of the patterns of myth that link divine and human realms, which led to Jesus being regarded by Christians not only as uniquely divine, but as a unique bridge between humans and a transcendant god.

Most practicing Christians and many theologians interpret the stories of Jesus as literal truth; and even where progressive Christians might see a particular myth pattern as a metaphor (such as the virgin birth), they usually interpret that metaphor as unique and specific to Jesus. Christians insist that when someone chooses Jesus, they must abandon all other spiritual forms, beliefs and entities – Jesus is not only Saviour (a concept that means little to a non-Christian), but Sole Saviour and incarnation of a sole god: and they believe that Jesus’s story is unique. At most Catholics and Orthodox Christians admit Mary as Mother of God and Co-Redemptrix, and Saints as intercessors (Protestants reject the cult of Mary and the Saints as deflecting from the uniqueness of Jesus – therefore constituting “idolatry”). Even esoteric Christians have written that Christianity is the culmination, the highest expression, the maturing and perfecting of the human religious experience.  It is that very insistence on uniqueness, literalness or perfection, that discounting or subtle downgrading of any other religious form,  that inhibits many non-Christians who might otherwise be open to exploring Jesus from integrating him in their spiritual path – and that even after they have had an encounter with Christ.

I have a personal experience to relate here. A couple of years ago, my father and I were driving to Granada in Andalusia, where my parents spend part of the year, and we decided to stop 24 hours in Toledo on the way. Both art lovers, we went to see the paintings of El Greco, Toledo’s most famous artist, which are dotted all around the city, from museum to a number of Churches (El Greco’s subjects were mostly religious). We were in the Church of Santo Domingo el Antiguo and I went to sit on a pew in a corner, to look at a Resurrection of Christ. I gazed at the representation of Jesus resurrecting. Time stopped, and I felt myself drawn into the painting, which came alive, swirling with the uncanny colours of El Greco’s palette. I rose with Jesus, in a state of complete enchantment. I heard a voice say “come with me”.

A part of my mind was astonished and I asked: “how can I? I am not a Christian.” And the voice answered – “I do not belong solely to Christians, but to all who are open to me.” I asked: “but are you not considered “the way, the truth and the life”, and only by you can we reach the Father? I don’t even believe in that kind of Father.”  And the voice said: “it is through the experience of resurrection that you become like me; through your personal resurrection you can attain the most blissful state that human soul can reach, which will be your own experience of reaching “The Father”. And then – even as I was still swirling up among the colours and with El Greco’s Jesus at my side, his intense eyes in mine – I was shown the inside of my soul and knew that there lay “the way, the truth and the life”, because it was experiencing itself in bliss, resurrecting.

Resurrection doesn’t belong to Jesus alone, of course. Innana/Ishtar also brings us to Resurrection and a number of other spiritual encounters – involving or not a deity or  spirit – can lead to an experience of renewal, even bliss, through a form of spiritual resurrection – to a personal gnosis where one is lifted up. It often follows – just as it did for Jesus and Innana – time spent in the Underworld. And indeed, when I had my vision in Toledo, I had recently been living in a physical and emotional underworld – I was recovering from a painful relationship breakup and from a debilitating broncho-pneumonia.

Yet there is no doubt that Jesus can catalyse an experience of Resurrection; and because of the richness of his myth, he can offer many other mystical experiences, bring many spiritual gifts and even assist in magickal work (it would be appropriate to invoke Jesus in a healing ritual, for example).  Jesus, like the rising Horus, can lead us to Ascension. Through his passion, through a vision of Christ on the cross, we might make spiritual sense of personal suffering and sacrifice and transcend them. Yet for non-Christians to integrate Jesus successfully in a spiritual practice, we must emancipate ourselves from the beliefs that only Christians are able or entitled to meet Jesus, that an encounter with Jesus will necessarily lead us to convert to Christianity, or that his story and meaning are solely mediated by Christian doctrine. There is enough in the writings about Jesus, the various gospels within or outside the New Testament, to work with outside of a framework of Christianity. And there is always El Greco…I don’t think it was chance that my encounter took place in Toledo, historically a town where many faiths intersected and influenced each other.

Many will oppose to me: but why bother at all? Why not just leave Jesus to the Christians or would-be Christian converts and  non-Christians to their own pantheons, theologies or spiritual philosophies? What need do we have of Jesus? Many Christians might object that removing Christ from Christianity is blasphemous (and indeed, some non-Christians might also take that view). While a number of them won’t mind sharing Jesus – indeed, some might encourage it* – many others will be uncomfortable or even horrified at  “their” Jesus being interpreted and experienced outside of a Christian framework – and in some cases, adopted alongside “pagan idols”, spiritual practices and worldviews that are radically different from Christian practice and doctrine.

It’s not necessary for everyone to encounter Jesus  in order to have a fulfilled spiritual life; but rejecting the possibility also denies the opportunity for some rich and profoundly meaningful experience. So I suggest that leaving ourselves open to such an encounter – even adopting Jesus in our spiritual lives  -  can be enriching  for non-Christians; and I know that the more open among the Christians, those for whom the message and example of Jesus is universal, will agree.

Have I been able to integrate Jesus in my own spiritual practice? I have to admit this has been problematic. My encounter with the Resurrecting Jesus, my own Resurrection with him, was so mind-boggling, so shocking to me, that though I keep it as a precious experience of gnosis, I’ve not been able to make sense of it in my daily life;  I simply don’t know where to place that event, though it changed me profoundly.  It is the reason I wrote this piece in the first place. In theory, there is no reason why Jesus cannot be integrated in any spiritual path. In practice, the weight of history, the almost exclusively Christian associations that have been grown around him since the apostle Paul first wrote about his own mystical encounter,  and the protectionism that surrounds most religions and even many free-form spiritual paths,  mean such integration is challenging.

For all the spiritual gifts to be found in an encounter with Jesus, for all the richness of his myth, as non-Christians we will continue to suffer many inhibitions – not to mention some degree of rejection (this is particularly the case among ex-Christians or those who have been persecuted by Christians, such as Jews).

But I don’t despair. I don’t think my vision in Toledo was a missed opportunity. It had some meaning for me, which somehow I hope be able to integrate more fully, in time. I think Jesus ultimately escapes attempts to circumscribe or co-opt him – as one who leads soul through the underworld and to resurrection, or to  ascend to its highest pitch, he is free. At the very least, I lived through something extraordinary – my blissful soul in flight.

* such as Bishop John Shelby Spong, retired Episcopal Bishop of Newark, New York, author of Jesus for the Non-Religious, though he specifically rejects the mythical Jesus in favour of the human, Jewish Jesus – which I personally find less interesting than the myth, and about which we know next to nothing that is certain. I am also grateful to my friend JMD, whose inclusive interpretation of the sentence  “I am the way, the truth and the life, no man comes to the Father but by me“ – so problematic for non-Christians – was truly illuminating.

Art:  Noli me Tangere, Fra Angelico, Convent of San Marco, Florence; Crucifixion, Georges Rouault, Musée d’Art Moderne, Lille; Resurrection of Christ, El Greco, Santo Domingo El Antiguo, Toledo; Ascension of Christ, Rembrandt, Alte Pinakothek, Munich.

Transformation in movement

forest, arve and chardonnay

I went for a long walk today in the mountains below the Aiguille du Chardonnet with Rosy, our West Highland Terrier. We walked up in the forest to a plateau, and down again by another path, into more open woodland by the river below. The last time I walked that way, it was summer. The birch copses on the plateau were covered in silvery-green leaves, the path was edged with blueberries and Alpine flowers and the streams leapt between fat green banks. The choucas – those high altitude blackbirds – were nowhere to be seen at this altitude.

The oracle Oeil de Lotus (Lotus Eye) has a card called Transformation, which I have drawn three times since I received the deck ten days ago. It also has a Death card, so I know this Transformation does not mean death – even though transformations do involve the end of something for something else to take its place. The emphasis of the card, however, is on the transformation, not the ending.

The card shows a target with the design of a labyrinth, with a butterfly at its centre. On a shelf in front of the target, a caterpillar crawls. We have a direct symbol – so well known, we barely register it. Caterpillar –> butterfly = transformation. Caterpillars take on average 7 to 10 days to turn into butterflies in their chrysalis. When we think that for most butterflies, an entire lifespan from the emergence of the caterpillar to the death of the butterfly is about 30 days, 7 to 10 days is a quarter to a third of their lives! A third of life during which they just hang, inactive, transforming.

The butterfly is the most common symbol for transformation in our culture, along with the snake shedding its skin, which also has to stop for the occasion (albeit not so long). But how many of us can give up a third of our active life to focus on transformation without any distractions? Certainly I can’t, and I don’t know many people who have that luxury. Yet transforming is part of life , an essential initiation. Holding back change is not only impossible, it can also cause great misery in and around us. So how to achieve it while going about our daily business? What symbol might better represent a process of transformation in movement?

The labyrinth!

A labyrinth invites us to walk around its meandering paths. Isn’t it a perfect representation of how we transform –  going up blind pathways, turning back, finding an open road, then another blind alley, retracing our steps again, finding a way we think is familiar but is brand new? Until finally, we reach its centre and discover – a butterfly! Without our noticing it, our comings and goings have led us somewhere entirely changed at the centre of ourselves and from that view, everything else is changed. Though we didn’t suspend action for a third of our lives, the motion we created walking the maze in which we live, work and love rewired us entirely.

I climbed up paths covered in flattened snow. I could just make out the whisper of streams under the ice. Choucas had flown below 2000 metres from their high perches, to seek food. It was the same landscape as last summer…yet it wasn’t. The change happened seamlessly, without a pause – and just as easily, in a few months the snow will melt, the streams will thaw, the earth will show brown patches, then green – and finally turn into summer. Winter might return at times before turning another corner into days when the crocuses break the ground.  As I reached the plateau and walked past the bare birches, I took a path in the snow that led to a large drift – it was impassable. I had to walk back to the edge of the plateau and find another path. I tried three different ways before finding one that snaked into the forest and down to the valley – Rosy became impatient with me! I finally made it home to find lying on my table – the Oeil de Lotus Transformation card.

Transformation